Thursday, January 27, 2011

Condemned



Aghast, I flee.
From the crowd.
From the endless herd.
From this world, in despair.

Aghast, I cry.
I cry for someone to answer,
The desperate, tired call o’my lost soul.
Lost in the blindfolds,
That hold this planet so cunningly under shadow.

Aghast, I depart.
My soul departs,
From a society full of pain.
Suffering slowly, succumbing atlast,
To its fate.

Fate isn’t so cruel, after all.
Suffer slowly, it then takes the toll.
Killing mercilessly, slaughtering them all.
Agonizing souls, before they finally fall.

Fate’s inevitable. Immortality, invincible.
Mortality defines a mortal, after all.

Aghast, I search.
I search for the crow to arrive.
The crow to guide my lost soul,
Which has now abandoned its mortal shell.

Aghast, I am.
As I lie in purgatory,
Claiming all the sins that I never made,
Besieging the gates of the damned.

Help me, I’ve been ruined.
Lost in itself, my soul’s all shattered.
Breaking open, tearing itself from mortality.
Realizing, that its immortal.

Forever, as I lie here,
Damned and Battered,
My soul is now immortal,
I now am immortal.



Sunday, January 02, 2011

Time Zero



I’m not going into the big debate. Science versus Religion, Followers versus Atheists, Believers versus Protestants. But this thought’s been bugging me ever since I was introduced to the world of Quantum Physics.

I don’t know where I should start. All I need to do is to share my thoughts with you. My fingers are typing randomly, and even the thoughts are coming so…

Science, or more relevantly Physics, starts from Man’s interactions with nature. I’m constantly reminded by my teachers that Physics is the simplest part of Science as it’s all about how one perceives nature. So I hail the perceiving as Imagination. Because you can’t make assumptions and then jot them down as axioms if don’t have the imagination first.

And yet, nothing, nothing in Physics is absolute. Every alternate breakthrough disproves the previous laws, claiming a new domain. New reign. You’ve got possible changes in the law of gravitation coming through, the Universe as we know it, being obsolete, Man breaking down more and more particles in the super-colliders to see the ‘inside of the big-bang’. But nothing is absolute. You can see anyone else some other day claiming that this all was bullshit. He receives a Nobel, and the world then starts anew.




I have Mr Hawking, for example. I was fascinated by him initially. His string theory and other-dimensions-concepts were mind-blowing for me. But then, he starts going deeper. He goes into the big-bang, making several daring assumptions. Saying the Universe isn’t unique.

Scientists claim that the Universe started from a tiny speck of light, which then expanded due to some driving force into the Universe. A fact ‘universally’ accepted today as ‘The Big-bang theory’. But there’s a question that always pops into my head. What was this driving force? If the Universe originated from this big-bang, and if it’s the unique, then where was this tiny speck of light originally contained?

CERN is busy today searching answers. Maybe for these questions, and thousands more. Its smashing elementary particles at nearly the speed of light into its LHC, creating a ‘mini’ big-bang to know what exactly happened at time zero.

Maybe they’ll have a breakthrough. Maybe they’ll find out what that driving force was. But, what about the more thousands of questions springing up from that single discovery? People will again get busy finding answers to those. Perhaps, even answering a few of them. But in that process, a thousand more questions will arise.

It’s a continuous, endless cycle. First, there was the atom. It was supposed to be the tiniest and the ultimate particle of matter. Then came electrons, protons and neutrons. Then came quarks and mesons and leptons. Then arose Anti-particles. And now, the world’s speculating whether a particle named Higgs Boson exists. I’d like to address it as the God particle, seeing that the name emphasizes its supposedly-ultimate-nature.

Even if this particle is rightly proved to be existing, all we’re going to find is that there’re other particles constituting that one. So go deeper, smash more particles. Again, an endless cycle.

We’ve gone from milli to micro to nano to femto. And all we find is more questions. The answers can’t cope up to the amount of their own questions that they give birth to, in return.

A single discovery springs up a thousand more questions. All I want to ask is, why are we being so ignorant? What is the problem to simply accept that there exists a power higher, supreme than us? Is it ego?

I was very much amazed by this Quantum Mechanics before. But now it seems meaningless as I go deeper into it. Its just a world full of more questions than answers. It’s a never-ending world of assumptions, hypothetical things and discoveries that get stale in a day or so.

If you want to say that its just giving up by not researching any further, then its not so. Its not giving up. Its just surrendering, belonging to a power, higher than us. What is it with the ego? Has man conquered death yet? Is he immortal? And even if he does be immortal, should he be immoral to be immortal?

There are things that’re out of our control. The same way as we can’t ever achieve the speed of light, in Physics.

If you believe that we can’t achieve that speed, then how could you not believe in a power supreme to us? Can’t we see that we aren’t supposedly the ‘supremos’ here? How can we be still so ignorant that the Human Race is the reigning one?

We’re advanced, and yet fear that the world would sink in 2012. If we’re so ignorant about being supreme why do we fear death? Why can’t we survive the natural disasters?

Nature is governed by her own laws. Hence, Physics can never be absolute… Science can never be absolute. All we have is relativity. See Einstein here, don’t you?

Even Einstein concluded that there’re things beyond the human thought. That God doesn’t play dice with the Universe.

I never mean that we need to cease being logical or well-reasoned. All I mean to say is there’re some things where we need to draw the line. Where its all beyond the human capabilities.

I am not talking about religion. The way in which man perceives God. I myself don’t know on which side I stand. I don’t believe in heaven or hell. But I do believe that Man can’t be the supreme.

I’ve never liked the way man perceived God. About sins and sinners, I’ve fancied nothing. But I feel that we ought to be just moral, humane in the end. Humble, as we meet our fate. Ignorance never paid. And again here, fate is a thing that no man can change.

We aren’t the supremos. Then though we be the reigning species on this planet. There’s something higher than us… higher than we all. For me, its just tremendous amount of energy. See I’m talking Science now, too.

Faith, I have. Religions and rituals, I don’t to believe in.

I’m a nobody. I mentioned scientists, criticized them, supported them, here. But, I’ve got no right whatsoever to contradict anyone. But this is what I felt, and I needed to convey it.

"When we as a species abandon our trust in the power greater than us, we abandon our sense of accountability. Faith . . . all faiths . . . are admonitions that there is something we cannot understand, something to which we are accountable . . . With faith we are accountable to each other, to ourselves, and to a higher truth."